Growing up

So on Charlotte's first day of school I offered to

take her because she is now gone all day long. She

is at school an extra 25 minutes in the morning

if she rides the bus. When she was in Kindergarten

they have a separate drop off spot and the teachers

are out there waiting. They then play on the

Kindergarten only playground right in front. This year

she rides to school with the big kids and I was

worried. I put her on the bus and drove over to school

to wait for her. She ran off the bus and said

"why are you here?" and continues to run past

me. I follow her in to make sure she knows to

go to the playground and not her classroom and

she runs down the stairs while I yell "bye Charlotte, I love you"

no response. I then spent the rest of the day feeling

so sad knowing that my days of her being around home are

forever gone and basking in my sadness. A few days ago

I asked her about school and she said some of the kids

have been crying and the girl "Emma" next to her cries

with her head on her desk bellowing "mommy". I asked her

if she missed me and she says "You?, then chuckles, no"